Its fun to be MOM

my motherhood experience is filled with joys and excitement
at times there could be pain and suffering
but none can outdo the happiness i get out of caring for my kids and husband

i am glad to share how i enjoy each moment with my treasures.

everyday, i need to get up at 4:00 AM after 4 hours of sleep to prepare packed lunch for my princesses and breakfast for my hachi.

this is getting me excited that i could hardly seat without thinking what to prepare for the next day for them

after 1 to 1.5 happy hours in the kitchen, dining table would be ready for breakfast
kids' study table will get hold of my precious pieces and tiredness would vanish when i see my kids all smile and excited for their packed lunch

in the next hour, i must leave home for work anticipating the off hours to get back home again :-)

Like a furious fighter,my pen starts to move in vigor,my mind wanders like that of traveller.And it becomes unstoppable as it was decade ago

Authority

I was with my friend for our real estate side line job.
We were closing the deal.

Yes, this is my first client.

I was assessing how have i done, of how the process went on. And as an excuse, i told myself "you overlooked a lot, that is okay anayway, this is your first time."

So the conversation goes, i had a lot to say but noticed to nod so many times for things i am not supposed to agree. right there and then i realize, i am giving in too soft.

On our way home, we were assessing how we were able to converse with the client. And yes, my bestfriend confirmed the observation i had for myself "i tend to be overpowered by the person i am talking with.

well i should say, this is not the first time i noticed that.

Just like how i should do in real estate, i must also learn when to be stiff and firm and when to give in.

Yes, if i intend to keep Human Resources as my primary role, i better start being one.

just wondering

Am i defiant or you just pushed me to my limits?

While writing this, I am reassesing myself and trying to see where these emotions are coming from.
I am not the type of person who would mistreat others. I would say, i hate speaking and thinking ill of others. I am not violent but i couldnt restrain from speaking whenever i see something's not right.
I couldnt stand to remain quiet especially if i see abuse and ridicule.

These might be the principle that drove me to stand resentful.
I feel indignated and mistreated.

what does resignation means

I am wondering how many people would do a lot more extra ordinary efforts to keep the magic of their own relationships on the steady light and easy phase.

I am in mcdo madrigal seated in my favourite corner just below the small black speaker where i could hear the music playing. I was eating my all time favourite mcfries and hot fudge sundae.

From where i am seated, i could see group of young men about six of them. Chatting, having fun while eating.

In seeing them, I started to wonder how long have they been friends, I also wonder of the personal details and experiences they share and of how open have they become to accept their differences. Of course all of them have their own set of friends side by side with these colleagues they are with now. And so I thought of what happened to these friends.

And then, I am pulled back by the reality of where my emotions and thoughts at the moment are coming from. Yes I am leaving friends again.  Friends, colleagues, mentors, places and activities I used to be with for almost two years.

Most of the time, the hardest part of confronting life and responding to it would be to face the changes attached.  However determined we are to keep the journey going, there would always be difficulties from leaving old faces to places and joining new ones.

The unforgotten legacies

I grew up loving love... loving life.

I belong to an ordinary Filipino Family whose love for one another resides, whose concern for God's community is a mission.
My father was a retired military agent. a once in a life time dreamer of being an "engineer" who turned out to be one of the best carpenter and furniture designer there was in town.

He was known for his diplomacy, a respected man whose words are honored by neighboors and friends not out of fear but out of respect. I would always remember him saying "magiging proud gud kamu sa pangaran ko" a Bikol idiom that translates "you will become proud of who your father has become" and "di ako mahali na wara mabibilin sa iyo" translated as " i would leave you with something"

True enough, we became rich - of people who truly care. And yes, he left us with treasure - the legacies of love, faith, respect and truthfulness.

There are the things that made us who we are at the moment. we were always guided byhis principles.